Love Diana

To my dearest vi (aka pickachu),

*speechless* there is so much I want to say to you but I don’t know where to begin or how to communicate to you… words cannot express the emotions running through me and the state of mind in which I am in, due to your horrific and unexpected death…right now im in so much denial…babes, im always thinking that you’re right behind me or by my side ready to tease me…*sheds a tear* and there is no way im going to believe that you’ve departed from this life…but I know one day, someday, I’ll have to accept the events of 26-27 November 2005…I always thought I’d remember year 10 as the year we had our formal, the year we had our retreat, the year we had our school certificate…now 2005 will be remembered as the year I lost my other half…im an incomplete person without you…it was because of you that I was a whole person, it is because of YOU that im alive…you gave me a reason to live…you gave me the confidence boost I needed when I was facing times of adversity…at the lowest points of my life you were there to pick me up and give me a wake up call…if it wasn’t for you, I don’t think that I would be alive today…our lives were one…it’s like I was ying and you were yang…we balanced each others lives out…you would help me in times of distraught…you taught me how to seek happiness and fun in my life…in return I would help you with your ordeals and support you academically  and in all aspects of your life…but even if I didn’t give back in return I knew everything would be okay because our friendship, our bond, wasn’t based on “giving and receiving”…it was based on honesty, loyalty and no hidden agenders…im stuck for words…I want to divulge everything that is inside of me to you but doing that would confirm your death and that is something I don’t want to do just yet…I will eventually but just not yet…it’s tribulations like these that evoke so many questions that can’t be answered…why did you have to be taken away from us? what did you do to deserve such torment? how does god have the right and ability to rob someone of their life? these questions continue to linger in the back of my mind…people have tried to answer these questions as best as possible but none of the answers seem to sit right…I pray and pray for your return…but it seems like my prayer won’t be answered… I don’t want to ask too many questions or speak too negatively, so if it’s alright with you I want to acknowledge and recall the memories that will be with me forever…

vi, do you remember the day we first met? I remember it as if it was just yesterday…I believe we met in year 7 english and our teacher was Mrs Dilosa…we were pratically in all of each others classes so it was convenient of us to become friends…jenny was in all our classes as well…you were the rebel while jenny and I were the goodie-two-shoes…you gave us a great insight on raves, popping and smoking…and we were only in year 7…it was so funny…do you remember that letter writing activity we had to do in english where we had to write to someone we didn’t know and jenny wrote a letter to you? in the letter she spelt your surname incorrect…instead of spelling your surname as ‘Chu’ she spelt it as ‘Chew’ like as the way you eat…*smiles* I think from then onwards she learnt to spell your name correctly…remember that comical moment in Mr Soloman’s history class where Jenny and him were trying to have some ‘fun’? *giggles* we wouldn’t stop making fun of Jenny and we haven’t let it down ever since…don’t worry, I’ll carry on making fun of Jenny for sure…I promise…year 7 must have been the most memorable year out of my schooling years…year 7 was also the year you were going out with Joseph…darn it, you guys were the most odd couple…he was the beast and you were beauty…hahaha…jokes Joseph…those were some good times aye?! we would always be on the phone with Joseph and Kevin…we would have a ten people conversation sometimes…that was crazy…but then again we were crazy! You, Jenny and I would call each other everyday of year 7 and talk for several of hours…how weird?! We saw each other at school everyday, talked to each other during our classes and lunchtimes yet we still had a lot to talk about on the phone after school…just to let you know Joseph, Kevin and their friends are aware of your departure just like you wanted them to know…I remember that we made a pact that if either of us were to die we had to inform particular people…and don’t worry I’ve kept my end of the bargain! They’re in complete disbelief and are finding it hard to comprehend just like everyone else…what else do I remember about you from year 7…oh yeah, you loved eating! Everyday you would have a bottle of coke for recess and lunch…for recess you would have a cheese and bacon roll…and for lunch you would have either a meat pie or sausage roll…plus a packet of chips!!! In addition we took our first ever dreamie at Morning Glory…at the time, taking photos at Morning Glory was some sort of trend…we took it when we went out for your 13^th birthday…what did we watch for your birthday? *scratches head* that’s right, we watched Mr. Deeds…what a funny movie…that was the first time I actually went out with you…you had so many crushes on guys in year 7, it was so not funny…I think you had some sort of crush on Thanh or something…one time, you asked me to call Thanh for you and pretend to be you to tell him that you liked him…so many good memories…you were also obsessed with television in year 7…you would watch television all afternoon…your favourite tv show was The Simpsons…if you did a quiz on The Simpsons you would get 100%…so that was year 7…

Then there was year 8…If I recall correctly that must of been our most rockiest year…we argued and argued…but in the end we would mend our broken fences and start fresh…I’ll also remember 2003 as the year that Uyen joined our group (our group being You, Jenny and me)…do you recall that dreamie we took for Jenny’s birthday? I still have it in my wallet and look at it every night before I go to sleep…that year you also had that bitch fight with Maria Dang…bloody biatch…when I found out I couldn’t stop crying…especially when I heard that you had slightly cracked your head…I guess that contributed to you being more susceptible to head injuries in the car accident…you also met a lot of new guys from being friends with Uyen like Tang, Paul…you and Linh became closer too…old friendships reignited between you and the girls you hadn’t talked to for a while (ella, quynh, yen…blah blah blah) you and Rebecca were also quite close…we had many ups and downs but we pulled through in the end…why did you have to leave for??? we had so much more to do in the future…you were suppose to be the godmother to my kids, the person I could go bitch about my husband to, the closest friend that was suppose to grow old and lonely with till the end of time…what do I do now?!! I was going to bail you out of jail whenever you got into trouble!!! all these plans have disappeared and have gone down the drain…

Moving right along…2004- year 9…we were practically in all of each others classes…there was a good and bad side to being in all each others classes…the good: we had each others company and had fun mucking around…the bad: helped you so much with your assignments and got distracted in classes (but I didn’t mind because you are my life)…how do I sum up this year? I was going through hell and back last year but you and Alex were there to catch me when I was falling, when I was standing on the edge of becoming ana…if it wasn’t for your support and faith in me I would have fallen into the traps of anorexia nervosa and most likely would of died from the disease long ago…it was because of you that I had a sense of direction in my life…you were my guardian angel and I pray that you continue to be my guardian angel and to many others…the best memory and highlight of the year was the camp…at camp we had a bush dance…remember??? everyone made you rave and would watch you…they were fascinated and mesmerised by the way you raved…the day at the beach was also fun…you were wearing your sassy black bikini…hotness…I can still picture the smile you had plastered on your face that day…camp was also the first time people saw you without eye make-up…year 9 was also the year when you experienced your very first true love with Tuan…never had I seen you love anyone as much as you loved him…he was your world…in your eyes he was ‘the one’…ive watched you evolved as a person through your numerous relationships…they made you a stronger and wiser person…you’re more of a woman than a girl in my eyes…you were my role model…maybe not the best role model but to me you influenced the way I saw life…I envied the life you lived…you were so happy and care-free…your soul was like a butterfly…I was talking to the teachers today and we talked about the smile you had…your smile got you away with anything…you could just smile at me and I would forget why I was angry at you…at school in our classes you would be perceived as a quiet girl when everyone knew you were loud…that’s why you got away with everything! god I miss you pickachu…im always thinking that I have to give you a call later…

This year…I can guarantee you bubs that I’ll never forget this year…you’ve accomplished so much this year…im so proud of you…you never gave up when you were being pushed to the deepest levels and you would always find the brightside of life…*mental block*…………..the first climax of the year was when we went to the city for my birthday…it was the first time in ages since we had gone out…sorry for making you do a lot of walking that day…finally took capital pictures with you that day too…im looking at them right now…we had fun that day right?! I bet your thinking “what the hell is ning nong going on about?!!!!”…I don’t blame you…year 10 retreat 2005 was a real eye opener…we were in the same group for activities and didn’t we mess around a lot?! it was so funny, you fell asleep during meditation and wouldn’t wake up…but then again that’s just you…you would take up any opportunity to sleep…lol…i miss your giggle, your smile, your facial expressons…your presence would bring warmth to those around you…we also had the year 10 formal…you looked gorgeous that night like you always do…I know that it wasn’t the best night but I hope that little talk we had that night about ‘you-know-what’ brought you a glimpse of happiness…I hope shaking your booty on the dance floor also made you forget your problems…this year is the year ive been closest to you…ive learnt to read you inside-out which apparently scared you…I was blessed to be given the opportunity to spend so much time with you…

I continue to replay the events of that Saturday…after work I was on my way home…that is when I bumped into you and Uyen…you guys were on your way to eat Habibs with Peter, Rebecca and Will…and with your great persuasive skills you convinced me to go eat with you guys not that I was going to eat anyway…we went and you were yelling at everyone to eat…in the end you and Peter were the only ones who ended up eating…you two were so funny…once we finished eating at habibs it was off to Boost…Saturday was the first time you drank Boost!!! I think you drank a Passion Mango…I have to commend you for your selection in the drink…it was a good choice for your first drink…I don’t know how you did it but you persuaded me again to go watch a movie with you, Rebecca, Will and Uyen…after great lengths of arguing about what movie to watch we decided to watch “The Brothers Grimm” which was on at 4:30pm and finished at 6:43pm…you invited Robert to come watch the movies with us and he said he would come…before we went to watch the movie we saw Emily and James…you couldn’t stop whinging about how short you were in comparison to Emily…trust me hunz you’re not that short…anyway that was one weird movie…why did you have to keep scaring me throughout the movie?!? The movie was scary enough without you prouncing on me already…Uyen left the movie at 6:00pm…you and me left the movies 10 minutes before it ended…we saw Robert, Jack, Anthony and Anthony’s girlfriend…do you remember? yes?! me too…you and Robert were mucking around like little kids while we were waiting for Rebecca and Will to come out of the movies…once Rebecca and Will came out of the cinemas everyone wanted to go eat but unfortunately I had to go home for church…I wanted to stay with you and you know it but I had to go to mass…we said our goodbyes and kissed each other on the cheek…and sadly that was the last time I saw you…pikachu, im so sorry for not making sure of where you were going before I went home…I should of asked you about your plans before walking off…please forgive me…im sorry that you had to suffer so much pain…you didn’t deserve to be put through such torture…if I went with you guys that night I would have been sitting where you were sitting and you wouldn’t have left us…your death has affected so many lives and that was evident at the mass we had for you on Sunday at 6:30pm as there was a large turn out…I don’t know that many people as much as you did…

We had so many plans for these holidays and for the future…you were suppose to come help me out at work on Sunday…when I was working that day I always thought you would come by the store to help…this Thursday we were suppose to go watch Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire…we were also suppose to take the girls out to eat at the Thai Hutt as their christmas present…christmas shopping was another plan we had made…we had to go buy Tuan a pencil case with a year’s supply of stationary in it because he kept taking Kong’s stuff…lol…we were going to buy Kong a Ben Sherman polo too…for Joseph and Kevin’s present we were going to take them out to eat…for each other’s christmas present we were going to take each other out on a shopping spree…for Rosa we were going to get her The Body Shop Hamper because she loved pampering herself…that girl! this christmas we were suppose to take a photo with Santa at David Jones Bankstown too…you said that Santa would be a really happy man if we sat on his lap and took a picture with him…you always turned  everything into a laugh…like that time when you and Rosa changed the retreat song into a song about me and Kong…you had a wild imagination but that’s one of the many attributes I loved about you…Vi we also had so much planned for the far future…you were going to pass your HSC and get into university to prove Kong wrong…you were going to do either a textiles course or hospitality course…if you did the hospitality course you were going to open a restaurant or bar and I was going to do all the legal  paper work…after school you,, me and Rosa were going to move into an apartment together…you and Rosa would be in charge of organising parties and I would be the one who provided for you guys and cleaned up after the two of you…we were going to send our kids to the same school and bring them take-away so that they could be the coolest kids! It was all your idea and I agreed because as long as you were a part of my life forever I would do anything…if I had daughters you would be their godmother…we were also thinking about moving to Queensland…

your exit from this world was so sudden…death crept up behind you with no warning…all I could do was pray for a miracle…but I had no luck…vi, to describe you as a person and state all the memories you have created in our lives would mean I would have to write endless pages…vi you seeked for the best in life…you were so artistic…you are my sister, my better half, my guardian angel, and my reason for living…you have advanced so much in life…you’ve slowly blossomed a great deal in this short time you’ve had…and for that I thank you…I don’t know if I’ve thanked you enough but thank you… may you watch us from above and shine your perpetual light on us…as I was sitting at the mass on Sunday I noticed that the sun came out after all that rain…I turned to Rosa and whispered to her, “when the sun rises vi is saying goodmorning/hello, when the sun is shining on us throughout the day she is checking up on us and watching us like big brother, and when the sun sets she is saying ‘see you later’…” if only I could get one ray of sunlight to hold it in my hand then maybe we could all be happy again and maybe this wouldn’t be the end of  your story…your life was like a story book…it was composed of many chapters that made you the person you are…sadly, this is the end of another chapter in your life…however, your book will continue to write its story as another chapter of your life opens as you enter eternal rest in heaven above with God…

When It All Falls Apart- The Veronicas

“Everything is f’ed up

Straight from the heart

Tell me what do you do

When it all falls apart

Gotta pick myself up

Where do I start

‘Cause I can’t turn to you

When it all falls apart”

bubz, you will always have a part of my heart and what’s left of my heart the presence of your soul will always be there…I’ll see you when I get up there…please wait at the golden gates for me…I know that heaven’s a pretty big place and I don’t want to get lost so you better be there to pick me up…

Vi Quynh Chu, I would like to end my dedication to you with the bible passage we both loved immensely…I know that it was the only bible passage you enjoyed reading…

1 Corinthians 13:4-10

“Love is patient and kind;

it is not jealous or conceited or proud;

love is not ill-mannered or selfish or irritable;

love does not keep a record of wrongs;

love is not happy with evil, but is happy with the truth.

Love never gives up;

and its faith, hope, and patience never fail.

Love is eternal.

There are inspired messages, but they are temporary;

there are gifts of speaking in strange tongues, but they will cease;

there is knowledge but it will pass.

For our gifts of knowledge and of inspired messages are only partial;

but when what is perfect comes, then what is partial will disappear.”

God in heaven, God above, please protect the friend I love. Sent with a smile, sealed with a kiss, I love my friend who's reading this.

Rest in Peace Miss Christine Vi Quynh Chu

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